For six years, art modeling has been my savior. Life experiences bring drama and episodes of darkness, art modeling gently brings the light. Emotional attachments stir me into a whirlwind, art modeling tames my racing emotions down to a soft simmer, so I can work, and function, and be present for others. Me, you, all of us, we must be present for others.
In my last post I referred to a tough weekend, my personal life causing turmoil, grief, and disappointment. What else is new?! How typical this has become. And though this mess is still in an unresolved state, I am still here, doing what I do, drawing strength from all aspects of art modeling- the act, the experience, the synergy, and the end results.
In recent weeks I’ve been posing for a private painting group taught by Daniel Schwartz. At one of the sessions a wonderful artist, Chris, created this work of me, and he really captured something essential. Models see ourselves often in artwork, but it’s rare when we truly SEE ourselves. I don’t mean merely in likeness and accuracy, but in a portrayal that confronts you head on with your own self. In this painting by Chris, my insides are on the outside. His perceptions reflect a certain truth, and I am “revealed” not through my nudity, but through the struggles of my heart and mind. Light and shadows. In art as in life, it’s all about light and shadows . . .