It’s arrived. The fall school semesters are upon us. Upon me. Even though I worked during the summer, albeit sporadically, this is the real deal. This is the full swing. This is the return of mayhem. Back-to-back bookings, muscle pulls, exhaustion, filthy platforms and paint stains, sprinting for subways, eating hastily during breaks, calling and emailing all day about bookings and scheduling.
I started yesterday, with a double! And which educational institution is so heartless and cruel to summon us back before we’ve gotten the August laze out of our system? BEFORE the Labor Day weekend? Evildoer, thy name is FIT 😆
In the past I have greeted the new school year with joyful enthusiasm, and felt a “back to work” thrust of invigoration. I’m strangely missing that feeling this time around. In its place is a bit of discontent, a touch of dread, and fatigue. Fatigue? Now? WTF? It’s September 3rd! That is way, way too premature. By December I’m fatigued, but September? When I was posing at FIT yesterday I felt enervated. Weak, almost. Both physically and mentally. Less comfortable than I normally do. Less confident. Less strong. Less motivated. What’s the deal?
Hmm. I’m not sure I like the implications of this. Ah, maybe I’m just reading too much into it and overanalyzing, which I am prone to do. I am wondering, though, if I am simply getting too old for this? All the hectic commuting, all the posing, all the erratic, insufficient meals and too cold studios, and a simmering shorter fuse (on my part) in dealing with difficult instructors and artists with an attitude? Is that it? Am I just getting too old for all this? My answer to you, my loyal readers is an emphatic “no comment”. Not yet. It’s too early to call. My gut feeling is that me and art modeling are just having a little lover’s quarrel. Working through a rough patch. I predict that we will smooth things out in due time.
So let’s take on the fall semester! I did have a nice smile yesterday when I turned the corner on Seventh Avenue and caught a glimpse FIT’s colorful, festive new window display: